Monday, December 31, 2007

I'll keep you my dirty little secret

I've been keeping my mouth and fingers to myself for a minute due to "Bad JuJu" but yea there's a little bun joint in my life. Nah you wont see me write this and that about him other than this blog. We are actually just friends that like each other. I'm still trying to get over the fact that he dress way better than me lol....

I'm not even expecting too much out of this, that might be the reason everything have been pretty straight. Minus the sex......

I'm going to see if I can look pass all that though. Hes going to be my background bun lol. If something comes out of it so be it though. Hell I'm not seeing anyone else anyway...

Saturday, December 29, 2007

Sweet Epiphany

New blog as what David says I have blog ADD with changing the link and what not. Hell out with the old in with the new. I decided to change everything because 2008 will be a big change for me. Of course every year we say we go be on some new shit, sometimes we stick to it and more than likely we end up doing and dealing with the same shit we dealt with in the previous years.

Now my sweet epiphany...

I am not "cold-hearted" as certain people may think. I have came to the realization that I am a serious lust-ball. When I meet a guy it becomes some big infatuation, and as soon as I get near them...the panties drop.

Disclaimer : I'm not talking about every guy I meet, that's pretty slutty...

Now in my head there's some thought of "Hey I can see myself with him.", I think that's Ms Twila talking more than anything (LMAO) so I would get all hyped up and like I said once the panties drop, it's no longer what I want. The thrill is gone....the thrill is gone away. I can put the blame on me for maybe rushing it, but I can't put the blame on it being wack. Am I some sex addict? Nympho? Man trapped in a womans body? (LMAOOOOO...) Anywho, I put myself in these situations, I know what I am doing so I can never say I have been used.

We all know the rules...

After 11pm if you not hittin Hoffmans up for the late movie, then those hours are for waffles and fucking... I know what I'm stepping out for nigga... and it's not for waffles (even though getting waffles after the fact would be swell...ya dig)

Going over a nigga's house unless the coolness have been established and this nigga know theres no pumping and a sweating that will be occurring.. You know it's going down... We all know what happens when you play fight, and your face might rub together cheek to cheek in shit.. Its going down.. Or when ya'll just laying together and she pokes her butt out a lil on you...It's going down... I know cause I do it...

Late night invites..... nuff said. I done that plenty of times. A nigga aint driving from N.W to where I live to watch a movie, and I'm not expecting him to either.

Anyway back to me...

I am trying to contain myself till I find "that one" no not a boyfriend... I'm not trippin off that right now. But someone I can hang out with, talk to, and have sex with. When it comes down to it, it pretty much explains the duties of a boyfriend. I think the title puts the pressure on everything though. Just to know that someone is there is good enough. He don't care what I'm out doing , and I don't care what he is doing. As long as we are being honest, not doing no one else and of course friends first. I can work with that. Anyway until then Ms Twila is on vacation who knows for how long, we all know me. I'm not trying to be like that girl off Black Snake Moan. If you havent seen it OMG... The girl was off the hook.

She had that "junkie itch" for sex, the movie is wild...

Anywho, If I ever meet a guy and it get to where I want it as far as the beneficial friendship and it leads on to more so be it. I won't avoid it, and I won't run from it.

But please if Mr. Right does comes my way can he please be packin something vicious? lmaoo..